Take This Life

As I'm standing here, staring into the mirror
See the figure of a man trying to take a stand
And live for something more
Integrity is what I need and honor to my soul I feed
To give it up, pack it in, getting rid of all my sin that's weighing me down
Won't you come and fill
I want You to come and make me for real

Take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole
Won't You take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole

In my pursuit of what is real
My heart is longing with a need to feel, my soul come alive
I trudge and I step through the height and the death
Of a long narrow as I'm growing old
And soon I will be home

Take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole
Won't You take this life, won't You change this life
Come and make me whole

- Shawn McDonald
ShawnMcDonaldMusic.com

it's always been so hard for me to walk on this path in trying to stay so diligent on. I've lived opposite it for so very long that it's hard to make the stand. my biggest problem was i tried to comprimise. i tried to keep things in my life that lead to my downfalls because i wasnt strong enough to hold urges and emotions off. I've ALWAYS had such a hard time fighting off and controlling my emotions. They come on so extremely strong with me. sometimes they linger. it always hurts and its always a struggle, even now when ive left most of the sources of my old life. i dont blame anyone ultimately for whats happened because i know its been me that has let it into my life and kept it there.

renewal...
this year ive felt a relief and weight off my shoulders, like dropping off some baggage that should have never been there, well, that needed to teach me a lesson. it feels so different to start getting passed things. i am starting to feel that old feeling of...well...neutrality again. its been a long time. i keep my cool. i dont let people get to me. i feel more on top of my game, but thinking about it, i think its because i start to close up again. i start to revert to just me and keep people out. maybe thats what i need. i dont like not being open to people, but i think i have no choice. however, all in all, i do feel better and more like myself.


Keep me where I need to be in my life Lord.
Thank You.




And when I look into your eyes
I see the hurt and the confusion
The pain as it rolls down your face
And the questions in your Mind
And I know, 'cause I've been there
Yes, I know, 'cause I've been there, time and time again

And DON'T you walk, don't you walk away
'Cause He will never desert you
He'll never let you down
Don't walk away from Him, no no no no no no no

You're always telling me that you don't need to change
That you're fine with who you are
When I look at you, I see you filling your life with all that you can find
Hoping and wishing this world can bring you
A little piece of mind
Well, stop looking, 'cause He's right in front of your eyes...

No, DON'T you walk
Cause He will never desert you
He'll never let you down
Dont walk away form Him, no no no no nono no no
Cause he will never give up on you today
No, don't walk away
Cause He'll never let you go
no, no, no, no
Don't walk
away
Don't walk
away
Cause He'll never let you go today
Don't you walk away from Him

- Shawn McDonald


and He hasn't yet.

Thank you. Please keep me where I need to be